I'm having trouble reconciling being bored and overstimulated, between despritely wanting to be and be left alone while longing for someone to have a meaningful conversation with, between being starving and not hungry at all, between being thirsty and not wanting anything to drink, between being bored with my obsession and compulsively engaging with it, between apathy and empathy, between belief and disbelief, and too many other pairs of contardictions I can't be bothered to name here.
I have the urge to create, but can't come up with anything worth pursueing to completion. I want to reconnect with someone, but I can't bring myself to initi